I'm Moving To California

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Update

I really don't know why I am updating... I'm sure no one reads my blog anymore... but here I go.


I graduated. Class of 2007! The only thing I can say about that is that I tripped down the stairs and almost did a face-plant!



I was a counselor at a 5th and 6th grade camp, it was great. And then I went to High school camp... it sucked. And now I have one more camp to go, a day camp at the end of this month.



The biggest news I have is my dad got fired so I am moving... to Carmel, California. Not because we have to, my dad could get a new job easy, but because my parents want to. They plan to move before school starts in the fall. My whole house has been under construction (aka: lots of yelling, banging, painting and cleaning). But that should stop pretty soon here, seeing as, my house is going up for sale on Monday.

Andrew and I are still dating. It will be a year on August 29th.


The End.

Happy New Years.

mmmm... CraZy?

mmm... CraZy?

ummm lots of news... But nothing I'm willing to share with the world... heh... What I will say is that I've been struggling with the weird-ist things... things I never though I'd have to decide this early in my life... Things I just shouldn't HAVE to decided... But... It being my life... I do have to make those decisions... and I know I have to make these decisions because of other decisions I have made... that mabye... I shoulden't have made... I know this might be starting to get really annoying cause if you are reading... you most likely have NO IDEA what I talking about... actually I KNOW you don't... *grin* So I'll stop babbling on...
Something I AM willing to share is.... well actually... I can't think of anything... *laughs* Pathetic.

♥

sweet 16

My Sweet 16!

I'm 16 as of today!! More later!!

Don't

Don't

Love Me, Don't Hate Me

Think About Me, Don't Talk About Me

Forgive Me, Don't Forget Me

Walk with me Not Away from me

Speak to me don't ignore me

Tell me what you think don't leave me out

Like me don't pretend to

Take me as I am don't expect me to change

help me don't let me drive myself into the ground

Protect me don't wound me

Kiss me don't hurt me

reach for me don't run from me

understand me don't stop trying

Hold me don't let me go...



Need me because I need you

Keep me because I'll keep you

Love me because I Love you








(c) Bonnie B.

Don't click Here.

Built up Frustrations

Built up Frustrations

Built up Frustrations
all new sensations
new found pleasures
security measures
feel my touch
slip friction clutch


bittersweet emotions
life promotions
so much to master
want it to go faster


understand the words I say
there's so many ways to stray
needing nothing, Wanting it all
be strong, don't fall


Built up Frustrations
all new sensations
new found pleasures
security measures
feel my touch
slip friction clutch


no more lies
just need to improvise
more wrong answers than right
my king of the night


body and soul
I'm yours to control
wrong or right
they'll be no fight


Built up Frustrations
all new sensations
new found pleasures
security measures
feel my touch
slip friction clutch

I miss you so much...

met me in your dreams
go to the extremes
I'll be your reality


Built up Frustrations
all new sensations
new found pleasures
security measures
feel my touch
slip friction clutch


Frustrated sensations
slip friction clutch













(c) Bonnie B.

Blah.

I owe you an update I think... I've been neglecting this blog... heh...
Well I have dyed my hair... Most of you (even if you did see me) wouldn't even notice the difference and... I'm Turing 16 in 2 days... I'm piercing my ears on the 5th of may... And this summer I will be trying to get my permit so I can drive... I was going to get a summer job... But... I decided I wanted to wait till winter so I can enjoy the summer...
I have made several life changing choices in the last couple of months...Well really in the last year... Most of which I've kept to myself... I'm seeing that as I get 'older' I'm wanting to keep more and more to myself... Locked away... But as Rachel may know... I failed to keep it locked away... But I still wish I had...
I think this year would be the first year I actually took the time to look back on my life so far... And To tell the truth... I'm more than ashamed... But if I had a chance to do it over again... I'm sure I wouldn't do anything different... Because... The choices I made... Were either because I felt there was no other way or just to protect myself... And those other few choices... Where that is just what I wanted to do...Stubborn as I am...
Well I don't want to drag this on... I just wanted to update a little bit for those of you who still read my blog... I Love you all and Miss those of you that I haven't seen in forever...

much love ♥

Smile for the cammera 

me again 

Me 

Happy... 

My Birthday...

My birthday...is in 17 days.

I'm A Princess...

HAHAHAHA... dont ask really... you DON'T wanna know.

New Layout... YAY!

new layout. very kool, huh?

Pleasure < Pain

I can deny myself pleasure... It's pain I can't deny myself

my Tan... 

Vacation Photo

Me, My great grampa, My mom, My aunt, my grandma and my cousin james.

Vacation Photo

pouting.. what a surprise.

Vacation Photo

The Ocean... and Me.

Vacation Photo

I LOVED the robe

back from vacation

just a short post to say hi... lots of stuff going on... family stuff... personal stuff... stuff stuff. hehehe. Missin the sun already... (I was in OC, California) and yeah... Love you all




<33 Bons

All my Blue Eyed Girls... 

My Other Love. My Ipod <33 

All I want is for you to understand