Not freakin' Fair

How come life seems to get in my way!! I mean thats why Im a in the moment gurl cuz the more I think about it the more I freakin doubt myself and any one eles opinion....*sighz* I guess Im just being stupid I mean... I dont know...like people say I shouldent date yet anyways but I dont freakin care about that really I mean what do they know....yes they have been my age and have done this before but there not mee...its not like i take anything seriously ever anyways...thats why I think that I need to do this...cuz I need to start to take life more seriously and i think that if I....ok that sounds really stupid....arg maby Im just compleatly insane and I just need to shut up....maby I am too young...maby i really dont know what Im talking about....maby...maby.... *shakes head to clear it* I think I need a self makeover cuz Im starting to think that maby its my fault that..... *make frustrated noise* never mind Im gonna go now before I say sumthing I really regret.