Keeps on saying

As I catch bits and pieces of conversation
between my mom and dad
as they shout at each other
I understand we're in some trouble

My dad crashed and totaled his car
and in the process got two tickets
on top of the 3 he already has
he was having his License taken away already

my dad keeps saying that he's a screw-up, a moron
my mom keeps trying to stay calm
hearing talk of selling our cars
remembering how it used to be kinda like this
before my parents split...

I turn up my music to drown out the noise
they just get louder
my mom is crying
I just keep on pretending this isn't happening

I keep telling myself its all gonna be alright
but I can't seem to believe it
mom talks of quitting Motherwise
my dad wont let her, he knows she wanted that

My dad keeps on saying he's a screw up, a moron
My mom keeps trying to stay calm
hearing talk of us kids on our own
remembering how it used to be kinda like this
before my parents split...

the yelling stopped
replaced with a constant sobbing
and a slamming of a door
dads gone to cool off, while mom sits and cries

everything shuts down in me then
every thought, every emotion
I'm on auto-drive
I don't cry

My dad keeps on saying he's a screw up, a moron
My mom keeps on trying to stay calm
hearing the silence before the big storm
remembering how it used to be like this
before my parents split...

And after my life went bad...





(c) Bonnie B.