Never

Feeling like nothing I do is right
always needing to fight
for the respect I know I deserve
always having to look away
pretend like I don't care
that they look at me the way they do


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


I know what I am, who I am
but knowing who I wanted to be still hurts
I may look like I didn't get it
but the truth is, I didn't want to
I may act like I'm ok with that
but the cold hard truth is I hate it.


It never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


Looking away, knowing I'll have to pay
Crying when I know, no one will care
all the pain I have to share
complaining about everything to forget
all the things inside if me that are hurting
maybe I am shallow, foolish and small
but how would you know, if you never really look


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


I see every look they give me
I know you think I don't
surgar coating words to make it seem funny
I know its not
But laughing is better than crying
yeah, laughing is better than trying
to explain how I feel


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay
in the end you wish you hadn't strayed







(c) Bonnie Broderick