Step A Little Closer

The Dreams that haunted me
were too real, too quickly
The Dreams that held me so near
came and brought new fear

but when I say I'm going in
I'm already two feet under
and when I say I Love you
it's because I really do

I'm nothing when it comes
to those brown eyes of yours
Can you feel its different
Don't want us to get distant
So, please, step a little closer

I can't pretend nothing happened
but I can come pretty close
If you do one thing for me
do something you would never do

Something that shows me
that your truly going in
Don't ask me what or when
the sky's the limit

I'm nothing when it comes
to those brown eyes of yours
Can you feel its different
Don't want us to get distant
So, please, step a little closer

why did you change you mind?
what did you find?
was it guilt? Was it shame?
was it love? Was it claim?

I'm nothing when it comes
to those brown eyes of yours
Can you feel its different
Don't want us to get distant
So, please, step a little closer



(c) Bonnie Broderick

Unprepared

Unprepared for the things you said
So afraid Of the things ahead
'cause if I do this and you get scared
I once again get caught unprepared
totally unprepared

you were forgiven long before
because I chose to ignore
what was happening
right in front of me

you say you'll fight for me
I guess I'll just have to wait and see
yeah I'm scared, yeah I'll cry
because I don't like Goodbye

Unprepared for the things you said
So afraid Of the things ahead
'cause if I do this and you get scared
I once again get caught unprepared
totally unprepared

Remember what you promised me
I know it won't be easy
Look me in the eye and say
that you will tell me if you get scared

you know how I felt
it hasn't changed
just playing with the hand I was dealt
don't really like how it's arranged

Unprepared for the things you said
So afraid Of the things ahead
'cause if I do this and you get scared
I once again get caught unprepared
totally unprepared

Unprepared for the things you said
Unprepared and totally scared
Unprepared yet I'm still willing
but only if you promise you are

Unprepared for the things you said
So afraid Of the things ahead
'cause if I do this and you get scared
I once again get caught unprepared
totally unprepared

(c) Bonnie Broderick

The Real Me by: Jaci Velasquez

People think I've got it all together
With the show of my sweet, sweet smile
But do they know if I've been happy ever
Pull up a chair 'cause this may take a while
Okay, so here's the thing

I've got my bad days
And some are even worse
I can be a blessing
And you know, I can be a curse

I tremble at rejection
I'm scared to be alone
Sometimes I may be selfish
But I always make it home

CHORUS
This is the real me
Am I the girl that you want me to be
This is the real me
With flaws and fears of intimacy
This is the real me

Can you face it
Can you feel it
Can you take it
Can you deal with
The real me

So now you see that I am far from perfect
I will fall and I will make mistakes
But I am here and this has taken courage
Will you abandon me or will you stay

I know that I'm demanding
And sometimes insecure
I think I've got the answers
But then I'm not so sure

I sometimes need attention
A little more than I should
But there is a part of me
That give the whole world if I could

CHORUS

Now that I've gone and let you in
And I no longer will pretend
Will you please still be my friend

CHORUS

Watch Me

Watch me as I give up
there's nothing i can do
I can't just sit back and wait
for my broken fate
Just watch
I'll end it all
so that there's not that far of a fall
it's better for you anyways
just pretend It never happened
or pretend it was all a dream
I'm not doing this because I don't Love you
I'm doing it because I do
and because I'm not something you should pursue
Just Watch me as I give up
I've been fighting it all along
or maybe when you sang that song
so let me overview it for you
We're just friends
and thats all we should ever be
but not because I want to
its because you do


(c) Bonnie

Quiz

Do you really know me? Take the Quiz.

Tell, Show, and Make me

Tell me you love me
Tell me you care
Tell me 'cause if you say it, it must be true
You would never lie to me...
right?

Show me you Love me
Show me you care
Show me 'cause if you do it, it must be true
You would never treat me false...
Right?

Make me feel you love me
Make me feel you care
Make me feel it 'cause if you do it, it must be true
You would never lead me on...
Right?


(c) Bonnie Broderick

Thorns

Maybe you do care
maybe...*crossout* This will work

I Love you... Did you know?
You make me feel so good

seems like you can't get enough of me
let me tell you it's mutual

'Cause every rose has its thorns
Some more than others

But you can still hold a rose if you hold it right
when I see you next you better hold me tight

Don't be shy, Don't Pretend I'm not there
Because I will be, and I'm still me

tell me what's on your mind
talk about how odd we are all the time

I wanna hear you laugh and
Be there when you cry

Tell me all your problems
tell me all your fears

Come all in with me
and If you dont like it, you can go on out

don't regret it, try it
I promise I'll be good


(c) Bonnie Broderick

Tiptoe...

Don't tiptoe around me
can't you see
that's what's hurting me

Give me all the good or bad
Don't worry about making me mad or sad
cause' I'm a big girl

Don't tiptoe around me
can't you see
that's what's hurting me

I can take it all and more
I hate that you think you can't tell me anything
because you can, it gives me purpose

Don't tiptoe around me
can't you see
that's what's hurting me


(c) Bonnie Broderick

Words

Your words keep echoing in my head
On those papers and what you said

miss you so much when your gone
wanna know the new conclusions you have drawn

do you regret anything you said to me
'cause I don't want words that are empty

I'm sorry If I'm Doubting you
I tend not to believe that anything is true

though I really, really want to
but if you wanna live without me and not pursue

I understand and will live with it
though I think you would regret it

Don't worry about hurting me
you can tell me anything, it's me, it's Bonnie

Twirl me around, don't be scared
though you may not be prepared

I think you can do this
be warned, it wont all be bliss





(c) Bonnie B.

I'm Poem-izing you MUAHAHAHAHAA

Sorry about all the poems *shruggz* I haven't really had anything interesting happen to me recently...Well till yesterday *laughs* OK OK! I had NOTHING to do with this but My mom had 2 spray Tans left on Friday so me and her got a fake tan. After I looked like an over cooked piece of toast! *laughs* but I let the spray tan soak in and took a shower in the morning so it looked ... As normal as a fake tan can get for me *laughs* then I went on my (now) daily walk in the morning (this was on Saturday) I got honked at (as usual *shudder* I hate being honked at) and 3 different guys (at different times) randomly started talking to me... One guy had THE worst pick up line EVER! He was a total Jock too (ew!) but he was all like "Where have you been all my life?" and I laughed and said something witty!! I said "Hiding from you!" and walked off! IT WAS HILARIOUS!!! He was all like standing there gaping after me! He didn't know what hit him!! Im so proud! And then I was waiting to cross the street and so was this other dude (who was kinda cute) and he's like "hey, do I know you?" and I said no and he's like "O...*long pause* where ya heading?" and I said "that way" *points straight* and he laughs and says "cool" and it went on like that, then It FINALLY let me cross the street and so did he and he's like "bye..." And I waived. It was totally BIZARRE!! And creepy!! And the last guy was just trying to impress his friends, so he was being a total idiot! But yeah...It was..Odd WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND TAN GIRLS?! *rolls eyes* yeah but Then I went home and did school work and wished I was with Rae...*sigh* BUT I'm all done with my school now so... IM HOME FREE!!! *happy dance* Ok Im done can't wait to see you all...AND You better not make fun of my tan! *whimper* *laughs* byeeeee!

I Need An Answer...

Tell me if you're in
Or would that be a sin?
Please don't keep my on my toes
'cause I keep ending up with zeros

Come all in or don't come at all
because I don't wanna fall
I know this is new
but can you tell me the issue

This doesn't need to be so hard
Let's just have a lil' fun
Just take it as it comes
unless you think you can't handle THIS
then I'll just blow you a kiss

I'll be ok either way
Just dont turn away
cant keep woundering like this
I feel like i just missed

you tell me it's not just dreams
but thats not what it seems
often, I feel like just another girl
Just give me a lil' whirl

This doesn't need to be so hard
Let's just have a lil' fun
Just take it as it comes
unless you think you can't handle THIS
then I'll just blow you a kiss

I know this might feel like a couple of blows
but thats the life of heros
You know I care
and you know you need to beware

what else do you need figured out
before you have no doubt




((not Done...But to tired to finish))

(c) Bonnie B.

Laughing

Get away from me, I don't wanna hear it
I really don't care anymore
I was always better on my own
where only I could hurt myself

Don't ask me what's wrong
Don't tell me it'll be ok
'cause I know it won't
and there's nothing wrong, Im just insane

Laughing, At what's not there
Laughing, 'cause It's all Insane
Laughing, 'cause I've finally given up
Laughing, in the dark
Laughing, Life is just so d@mn funny

Yeah you'll see me
and It'll all seem the same
but its not cause I've gone insane
all laughs and smiles

careful Im dangerous
I might just bite
So get out of my freakin' sight
Im ok, Im fine

Laughing, At what's not there
Laughing, 'cause It's all Insane
Laughing, 'cause I've finally given up
Laughing, in the dark
Laughing, Life is just so d@mn funny


(c) Bonnie B.

Keep On

On the edge of everything I know
pushing away my hero
I want him to come closer
But I keep yelling 'Danger!'

growing up, tell it to stop
I wanna be that li'l girl on that hill-top
make it so it's worth it
still don't feel like I'm adequate

running, I'm going nowhere
crying, they can't hear me out here
screaming, no One will care
hoping, he'll finally be there

Keep on, despair is comin' fast
Keep on, forget about your past
Keep On, they do love you
Keep on, you have someone true
Keep on, just stop thinking, 3-2-1 go

just let it all go
stop putting on a show
'cause you're growin' up, like it or not
so stop being such a big-shot

Push a li'l harder
Go a li'l farther
sleep away all your wondering tears
try to kill all those haunting fears

running, I'm going nowhere
crying, they can't hear me out here
screaming, no One will care
hoping, he'll finally be there

Keep on, despair is comin' fast
Keep on, forget about your past
Keep On, they do love you
Keep on, you have someone true
Keep on, just stop thinking, 3-2-1 go




((not done...))

(c) Bonnie B.

So Hard

So Hard to be close to you
Harder to turn away
I need to end this wondering
Just tell me where it's going
Will you jump in at the count 3?
Yeah, this is my plea

Love it when you're near me
You protect me when they're mean
Yeah, just seems like I fit
In that one place in you neck

I know this isn't what you do
I promise I'll try not, to do anything your not into
Just tell me if I overstep you
'Cause I Won't be an issue

So Hard to be close to you
Harder to turn away
I need to end this wondering
Just tell me where it's going
Will you jump in at the count 3?
Yeah, this is my plea

You make me feel so freakin' good
I'd do anything for you that I could
Just seems so easy when you're around
You have me to the ground

If you know you will always be on that fence
Then you must know you'd be doing it at my expense
Don't worry about not measuring up
'Cause you already do

So Hard to be close to you
Harder to turn away
I need to end this wondering
Just tell me where it's going
Will you jump in at the count 3?
Yeah, this is my plea


(not done...)
(c) Bonnie B.

OK OK!! I'm Stepping back in!!

I went to Rae's House On Sunday *so happy* we went to High School service and then went home and hung out then checked the swimming thingy cuz I REALLY wanted to go swimming!!! And then we invited John and Sara to come with us and Jeremy Invited Luke, too so I put My new swimsuit on (with my swim top) and then I went out side to play with the hacky sack which I still cannot master *pouts but is determined* and waited for John and Sara to get there. I kept kicking the hacky sack (or trying) and everyone was makin fun of me *tear* but I got over it *grin* so me, Rae, Joe and Jeremy were "hacky sackin" and waiting, and then they FINALLY got there on their bikes so we talked for a while and I got impatient and started off and they followed *grin* when we got there it had already started but *shruggz* so we went into the changing rooms... Got blinded and got wet and came out and jumped in the pool!!! *remembering how happy I was* *grin* when we got there Joe was already in the pool and he told us that (the smart one) John Forgot his swimsuit *grin* so he and Jer went ALL the way back to The Bower's House and got his swimsuit and (again) FINALLY got there *wicked grin* while he was gone Rae, sara, Joe and I took the swim test so that we could go in the deep end, and John refused to take it but, may I add, still swam in the deep end *tisk-tisk* *grin* O and in between there Luke got there and so we were all swimmin, Jumpin off the divin bored and talking. And I got groped by Luke somewhere in there to!! *shutter* I SWEAR I think he did it on purpose!!! *glarez at luke where ever he is* and I did a flips!!! *is proud of self* AND Jer, John and Luke were all doing daring boy moves to show off to who knows who *grinz* JP boyz!! And Rae was like Raping luke and I WAS THE FASTEST SWIMMER!!! I beat Jer even and I beat John when he tried to cheat *grin* and Rae with her head start and I just beat luck cuz I did and I FEEL SO SPECIAL!!! I might not be able to beat them on land But I whop a$$ in the water *wicked grin* *is happy* but yeah anyways those are the highlights of swimming and then it ended so we all went back to the scaring changing rooms..(I just grabbed my stuff and RAN!! LOL and the Boys were taking FOREVER!! Pfft and they say girlz are slow!! *grinz* JP!! And then I bribed Jeremy to give me money for a snack and Rae Bribed John *grin* Me and Rae are very manipulative!! *grinz* and then we all walked back to Rae's house and Hung out and played on the comppys and I sat on John's leg and Daddy reprimanded me *whimper* *grin* not really but *hruggz* and... John was trying to prove this point and was tickling my foot and not letting it go while I was sittin in Jer's lap And then I fell off of Jeremy and John Gave me back my foot and I Sat with him under Jeremy's desk and the dogs were like molesting me LOL and Joe Got threatened with two knives!!! *laughing* and then we left to go to the Bowers house because They had to watch Laura because their momma was going to night service thingy, So John Biked back and the rest of us got in daddies car and John beat us to the house and when we got there Laura was lookin like a little angel sleepin on the couch and then I was Like wondering around the house, so I decided to entertain myself and go outside to the trampoline! It twas fun and then Rae came out and jumped with me and then every one else decided to join and we were on and Off the trampoline like the whole time and Jeremy and John tired to get something back but they had to umm...Pay for it? LOL *evil grin* and John kept stealing my feet and tickling me and Jeremy helped and I almost fell of like 10 million times but John and Jeremy SAVED me!! LOL and...and then James got upset cuz he felt excluded (note: tiz not your fault) and so I decided to go and comfort him...He wouldn't let me in for a time, nor John either but then a lil' while later I knocked and said "can can me and you just play?" and walked in and so he was showing me his bennie babies (mainly the monkey ones) and then John Came in and was talkin to him and then Other people and James was feeling better and stuff so I decided to slip out and Go back on the trampoline, and Rae joined me once again *grin* and then James and Joe and then the rest of then (cept Sara...She was being a lil' anti- social *tear*) and then stuff happened and we had to go so we were getting ready to leave and Evan, Adam and Anna came back from the Nutter's house (they watched a movie) and we all said Hi and then Adam scared mee by pointing an airsoft gun at me and making it go "click" *whimper* noooooo and then we were leaving and John, Evan and sara was going to walk us home but sara left us *sob* I donno why!! And so John and Evan walked Rae, Jer, Joe and I home and they went father then they were so post to *oops* and then there were Hugz and Goodbyes and Jer walked The Bowers back to their house...*odd* but yeah so Rae and I hung out and Talked all nite till late and we had to wake up at like 8:45ish and then Rae and Joe and Jer left for their Dentist appointment *sad* and my daddy came to pick me up like 5 min.s Later.... and yeah


THE END! *grin* Or is it??

Not Much Is Up...

Steppin out of the social circle for a bit...heh.....Need to work on.... some things...but yeeeeeah...Im done bloggin cuz i've got nothing to say....