Senseless

Dreams haunt me with THIS
cant get these things outta my head
wishing for a love I know I cant have
every breath I take is laced with pain
every mistake I make is another bullet to my heat

as I take the steps I'm making
I look back at my path and see my destruction
it pains me more than I thought it would
I want to cry out to make some sense of it all
but I know I can't, it won't help

a gun pointed at my head, a sword to my heart
yet they don't strike me with the killing blow I think I need
they stay there and taunt me with their power
So I keep on

Screaming, so outta control
everything always happens too fast for me to react
I wanna say it all, and have it have no meaning
but everything has its price, that must be payed
playing with my fire

give me your hand pull me out of my game
given my hand to so many, only to pull them down with me
But I can't keep, who I'll only condemn
And I can't keep playing my games of fire and destruction
maybe only because I've seen

a gun pointed at my head, a sword to my heart
yet they don't strike me with the killing blow I think I need
they stay there and taunt me with their power
So I keep on


(c) Bonnie B.

Me ME ME

CAUSE IM STILL BROKEN

THEY SAY EVERYTHING IS BLACK AND WHITE
BUT ALL I SEEM TO SEE IS GRAY
NOTHINGS RIGHT, IT'S ALL A MISTAKE
LIFE GETS HARDER, HEARTBEATS SLOWER

I KNOW I'M DOING IT ALL WRONG
PRETENDING I'M STILL STRONG
I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL
I REALLY JUST NEED TO HEAL

I KEEP BREAKING
CAUSE I'M NEVER REALLY FIXED
HEARTBEATS FAST CAN'T SEEM TO LEAVE IT ALL IN THE PAST
I KNOW I'M WRONG, I KNOW I'M HEADSTRONG
IT HURTS, O GOD IT HURTS...

'CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
DEEP DOWN INSIDE
EVERYONE MAKES ME MAD
EVERYTHING MAKES ME SAD
LIFE GETS HARDER WITH EVERY STEP I'M TAKING
DON'T KNOW THE MISTAKES I'M MAKING
CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
TAKING A BULLET TO THE HEART

I'M GONNA CLOSE MY EYES
WISH ALL MY PAIN AWAY
BUT I KNOW MY DEMONS WILL STAY
CAUSE I CAN'T SAY THEY'RE ARE WRONG

I'M PAST HELP, PAST KNOWING
PRETENDING MAY COST MORE THEN ITS WORTH
I'M TRYING, ON THIS LITTLE PLACE CALLED EARTH
BUT IT'S NOT GOING AWAY

I KEEP BREAKING
CAUSE I'M NEVER REALLY FIXED
HEARTBEATS FAST CAN'T SEEM TO LEAVE IT ALL IN THE PAST
I KNOW I'M WRONG, I KNOW I'M HEADSTRONG
IT HURTS, O GOD IT REALLY HURTS...

'CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
DEEP DOWN INSIDE
EVERYONE MAKES ME MAD
EVERYTHING MAKES ME SAD
LIFE GETS HARDER WITH EVERY STEP I'M TAKING
DON'T KNOW THE MISTAKES I'M MAKING
CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
TAKING A BULLET TO THE HEART

'CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
DEEP DOWN INSIDE
EVERYONE MAKES ME MAD
EVERYTHING MAKES ME SAD
CAUSE I'M STILL BROKEN
TAKING BULLETS TO THE HEART


(c) Bonnie B.