Friday, December 31, 2004

Why do guys with Girlfriends still flirt with OTHER girls?

4% they want to hook up with the other girl.

7% they want a back-up girl in case their relationship ends.

15% they like the ego boost that flirting gives them.

74% they're just having fun.


(c) Seventeen mag.

Happy New Year...

Gosh darn'et! rea bailed out on mee!!! *planning her death* (tee hee hee) So I get to sit her at home whit my annoying lil' bro and do nothing!!!!!...so yeah lets hope every one else is hav'en fun...*tear* you should have invited mee tho!!! *pout* ...well yeah buy

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

why do we all play along wit this F-U-C-K-E-D up game?

Why do we play along with MTV's Ideas on what is hott and whats not?! Why do we feel the need to be that "Victoria Secret" model...Who said that skinny people are more beautiful? Who said Blonds are more beautiful than red heads or brunettes? Who said small feet are a "must have" for women and big feet are a "must have" for guys? TELL MEE...WHO MADE THOSE RULES UP?!....WHO SAID I HAVE TO BE A ANOREXIC, BLUE EYED, BLONDE TO BE BEAUTIFUL?!!
Do you know who "They" are?! ...I guess it would be all those f-u-c-k-e-d up p-o-r-n stars or magizines, books, T.V.....I mean what do they know!!!! Most of those people are screwed up adults! Who are they to tell mee whats "Cool" and whats not?!

Who are they to make mee feel ugly?!
The thing is....we are now trapped in this plastic world of..."Beauty" and sure you may think that your not in it ...or say that ur not...but you are stuck in it with the rest of us! And we're stuck becuse of those who take "them" seriously! Way too seriously!!! You know, the ones that have guys falling over them! They have fallen for there illusion that they will be happy if they do EVERYTHING that they say is hott!...heh...yeah there happy alright ..for about 1 min. then they have to get the next hott new thing!!! sounds fun eh?

sooooo.. yeah Im done, I know that there r like A BUNCH of spelling errors but Ill fix it l8ter but yeah...Im gonna rock with gwen!!!!!!weeeee

Sunday, December 26, 2004

New years...

I wanna go 2 a party for new years! but....theres a problem...Ive got no party to go to this year...*sniff* I love parties! well i love wild n' crazy parties....lol yeah well I wanna go ta one of those parties!!!!!! BUt i dont know of any...Bad luck!!!! *whine* anyways Ill be going now bye buy bi

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Good books

Vimpire Kisses By:(I'll get bac to you on that)

Contence Under Pressuer By:(look at the above author)

Sunday, December 19, 2004

non-commiter

A non-committer (like myself) will eventually destroy (almost) any solid relationship. He or she, wants love, but fear of commitment makes a lasting love (almost) impossible. When the relationship moves forward, he or she quickly backs out becuse of there fear of rejection.

Rejection...n' other stuff

REJECTION, that is the only thing that stands in the way, of more than 97% of realtionships!!!
(according to:)
( www.jays-xxx-links.com/editorials/wearing_down_mack.htm)

That one small, but complicated word. That is the thing that broke up many peoples relationships.....that's the thing that people (I) struggle with...but (for mee) its not just rejection its: the person, time, stress, out of control feelings..., maby even commitment (that would be my biggest proplem! ((but lets not get into that again))) and Im not just talkin' about boy/gurl relationships...Im talking about all relationships!!! 97%......97! I guess thats not surprizing.....but why cant the Human Race get over that mountain?! why cant I? why cant you?! what is it, that makes it so painful? so... heartbreaking?....to be unwanted.... thats why......the only thing that keeps us going... is to love...and to be loved, and if your rejected (not wanted) your not loved by the rejector....you (in a sense) are being thrown away with the rest of the trash....Let mee tell you you are not trash!! you are just hurting, confused...... that just, has'nt yet found that one, true blue friend or that one guy (or gurl) that makes you compleat in this world........but to find that person you are going to have to risk rejection.....risk hurt....taking that risk will somday be the best thing that has happed to you....it could be the best support system....the....................
the best
glimpse of heaven....

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Love is a good thing too!!

I guess i have been pointing out only the harsh points of love so lets look at the Glimpse Of Heaven I was talking about.....

(Beggining daters may not yet know the pleasues of a relationship with another like:)


for even a little while connecting with another,....to be one (without sex!), to be on the same team.,...to all most know EVERYTHING about someone you really care about, to want to make a moment last forever....and ever.....and ever...
.....I mean the pleasuers are endless

(well not totally endless..marry that person and then they are! lol)
Mee, I still havent found a decent guy....but i know that some of those men still exist....and sure even if i find that person its not gonna be the "happily ever after" i talked about....but it will be as close as it gets......

Happy Ending?.....yeah, RIGHHT

Ya, know that "Happy Ending" where everything ends up perfect?

well, they dont exist!!! Do you know, the world that a morjority of my

ex-"friends" live in? no? well then, YOU should know that there is no

such thing as a "happy ending", or "perfect people"or...a "perfect world"

You are one of the few people that know nothing on this earth will

ever be what you want it to be... your story cant be that "once apon a

time two people fell in love and lived happily ever after"pst...right its

more like "once apon a time two people fell in love, but broke up after a

couple of weeks" there is the real story of a dating teen....or in some

cases of a dating or married adult... many people have tryed to go aroud

this never ending cycle and stay single.....yeah, some make it

but.... the majority, dont and Ill tell you now IM not one of them,not

the one that can find there way around it.....I dont (think) I want

too....... I guess I just acceped it as a part of life to be stabbed in the

same place over,...and over.....and over......and the funny thing is....that

IS the way life is....well to put it bluntly we...no...The Human Race

is cannibalistic (metaphorically speaking) we feed on the pain and

suffering of others (even tho we may not know we are doing it

((...but if you are its ...hummm almost impossible to miss the people

you are feeding on becuse they have got your (permanent) mark on

them....and that mark no matter what they/you do to heal it...wont ever

undo itself...that scar could huant them for the rest of there life (tho you

((if heartless)) could forget about it...or

them))..................................................
yeeeeeeeah.....Im done...





Lemony Snicket...

I guess it was a good movie .... see I read the book so i guess I expected it to be better ... but i still would see it if you havent....but yeah....

Friday, December 17, 2004

Maturity....

I hate when people just a little older than you think that there "more mature" then I am!....Just becuse you have been on this earth for a longer time than mee dosent mean that your "more mature" it just means that your older!!! I mean, yeah, some people that are older than mee are more mature than I am...but you wanna know why?! its becuse they have gone tho stuff and learned from there mistakes....i know younger people that are more mature than any adult!!! i guess Im not the most mature 14 year old but.... Im mature enought to admit that and to say that I have learnd from some mistakes and others I just.... forget about...I mean i have gone tho alot of...(dont hurt mee rae) shit...i have battled the world, Ive battled people, friends...best friends, Ive battled men...no boys, and i guess that..... i have a way of selling myself as a mindless, careless girl...but...Im not....I wish I were....O, what I would do to be who I pretend to be...And if thats not "mature" then being mature is hell! who said that growing up had to suck? who made that rule? who is making growing up suck?!! well who-ever or whatever that is, I say screw them...I mean life is alreddy crap with out them helping....I would know....this "mindless girl" has thought of sucide.....and this "careless girl" takes prozact....so dont tell mee that i dont know what its like to have a whole lotta shit happen....i know what Im talking about....and i bet...
you do too...

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Life Vs. Love

There are two really good arguments for Life Vs. Love...... and I really dont know who Im rooting for... I mean I ask one person what they think about not dating and I totaly agree with them but when it comes too mee....and people asking mee out (or mee asking them out...it only happend once and i totaly dissagree on girls asking bois out but yeah) I have a hard time turning down love (but most of the time its lust.... *sigh*) I mean like, yeah, I have a hard time saying "No" to guys....but I also have a hard time not having a crush on em' and the people I have talked to that dont date dont have a problem with likeing the oppsite sex....so I guess what Im saying is I think would like to be on life's side its just Im stuck on love's side......(tho at times i dont regret that but theres other times when i do...) see love has its edge just like everything else (Life, People, etc.) it can and will hurt you at times but when those times are gone and all you have is loves soft side..... Love is that glimpse of heaven!!.....and with life...i dont really know..but i dont think that life will ever be that glimpse of heaven....and if any of the non-daters read this (i think that) they'll agree with that but theres a time and a place for dating and Im just too damn Impatient to wait so I keep hurting myself over and over......but I guess thats the way I chose...Or maby love just chooses you......

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

back-stabbing friends from hell 2

I have a feeling that Im a really bad friend chooser.... wait.....Im a bad friend chooser and a bad Boyfriend chooser..... I guess Im a bad judge of character.....Grrrrrrrrrreat! *trys to knock self out* *pain* *pain* *stops and falls over*.........................................................
...........................................
............................

Ramdom

OK I am so confuzzled...But thats nothing new!....*strech* I just woke up and....Im still tired but whatever! hummmmm yeah Im done!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

OMG!!!

ok I met the cutest guy!!! He gos ta choir whit mee!! AND he dosent have a GF.... THO i still have bad luck whit guys But lets just pretend that i dont!!! I think hes....15 or 16 but idk yeah so had ta blog that!
buy buy bye bye bi bi!

Monday, December 13, 2004

keep mee?

waiting for the Inevitable to happen
for my past to pull mee under
used all the ways out
used all my strength
all my soul
all I had left
this battle scarred girl is tired of fighting
tired of living as if in some care-free world
that no longer exists
the real world is out to get mee
and only hope thats left
is the hope that my knight in shining armor
will come
the longer i looked
the longer i wait
I realize
he's never coming for mee
no one is coming for mee
I am empty
darkness that once had a strong hold on my existence
will once again take ahold of my heart and this time
that darkness will break mee
break mee past healing
past living
no one loves mee...
not for mee
no one wants mee
no one keeps mee
can you save mee from this darkness?
will you want mee?
keep mee?
because...
no one else will
just
keep mee
keep MEE


(c)AMY

Edith Wharton: US novelist (1862 - 1937)

If only we'd stop trying to be happy we'd have a pretty good time.
www.quotationspage.com

Edna St. Vincent Millay: US poet (1892 - 1950)

It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over.
www.quotationspage.com

Random love Quotes

Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illumines it
--Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)

Immature love says, 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says, 'I need you because I love you.'
--Erich Fromm

Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life.
--Leo Buscaglia

The most difficult thing that you can do is to watch the person you love love someone else.
--Unknown

To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven.
--Karen Sunde

All from: http://home.att.net/~quotations/

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Back-stabbing friends from hell

what is it with people like that a mean, how could you after so many years! Could you do that to a friend or really....Anyone?!....I would never dream of saying nasty, vindictive things (like she did) about anyone...(well before I heard all the stuff she said about mee and*she=megan G.*mee I couldn't...But now I cant help talking about her hostilily...)But I guess I knew that once I didn't act the way she wanted mee to, or dress the way she wanted mee to. I mean I would never wear shirts twice my size because I was flat chested ( well she is, IM not!) !!!!!! AND her pants are the same way....! Mee, I like to wear things tight-ish!!!! I love short shorts and skirts and she doesn't... Dose that give her the right to be all high and mighty and all up in my face?! grrrrrrrrrr.......

Guys?!

I mean... I am only 14 but come on! I've gone out with a 17 year old too, and that .... Don't even get mee started on that! I mean is it mee, or the guys I choose, or r all the guys that aren't taken or gay, just plain suck being boyfriends! Grrrrr IM so confuzzled!!!

Friday, December 03, 2004




I hate people like abby and megan!


Hey

yeah so had to get that out of my system,Im Bonnie, Im 14 and my birthday is may 1st, im a brunett with green eyes, Ive had HORRIBLE experience with ALL the guys Ive dated

Thursday, December 02, 2004

my color

#7F0055