All my Blue Eyed Girls... 

My Other Love. My Ipod <33 

All I want is for you to understand 

Updating a little

Been writing alot... Been listening to music ALOT... Been reading a little.... Been sleeping alot..... Been on the phone a little... Been up late alot... Been hearing yelling.... ALOT... looking happy for show... alot... Been crying with no one to comfort me.... All the time.

A Thousand Miles Lyrics

Artist: Vanessa Carlton Lyrics
Song: A Thousand Miles

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

I may break

I think I may break
there's just so much at stake
wanting it all
but knowing that could be the
reason for our fall

everything so perfect, so true
But nothings perfect, So I'm scared
that I'll end up losing you
going crazy thinking
maybe that's why I never do

this love of ours is sweet
but it hurts me
just waiting for my defeat
this love you give
holds me captive

I think I may break
there's just so much at stake
wanting it all
but knowing that could be the
reason for our fall

it wasn't supposed to happen
never this way
I meant to leave you
before you had a chance
to burn me

but every time I saw you
I forgot my plan
laughed with you and kissed you
no, it wasn't supposed to be that way
but I'm happy it did

I wouldn't give this way
for anything
please you must understand
I Love you... I always will

I think I may break
there's just so much at stake
wanting it all
but knowing that could be the
reason for our fall

I can't bear it when your sad
wish I could kiss your pain away
laugh for me, smile for me
man I've got it bad....

I think I may break
there's just so much at stake
wanting it all
but knowing that could be the
reason for our fall

I don't ever want to fall.... Not unless your there to catch me












(c) Bonnie Broderick

Busy?

heh. So little update. John's been back for a few days and I've been hanging with him and Li (his school friend) who may I add, is a really cool guy but picks out horrible movies. lol. But anywho that's basically what I've been doing... Hanging out with them... My parents are starting to get a little peeved cause they say I don't have to spend EVERY day with him... But he's leaving again till may 20th and I want to get my time with him before he leaves... But yeah... No one wants to hear about that ... But nothing else is really going on right now... So I guess I'm done... lyl




<333Bons

Just so everyone knows this is my Brothers Gf....

Connor's "Girlfriend"

Don't Understand

I know you love me
and I know you care
your everything
your mine

but nothings perfect
I know that well
nothing perfect but
I tell you, all of my faults
where's my verdict?

do you not trust me?
I just don't understand
why you can't tell me first-hand
is there a reason your protecting
me from you?
don't you understand all I want
is you?
but I can't do that at arms length
only when we're level
Do you not trust me?

I know it may sound stupid
but really who cares?
nothing I can say will change you
and stuff you keep from me
I might never know

but we both know
it always comes back later
and this will never work
if your not honest with me
I promise I won't be angry

do you not trust me?
I just don't understand
why you can't tell me first-hand
is there a reason your protecting
me from you?
don't you understand all I want
is you?
but I can't do that at arms length
only when we're level
Do you not trust me?


I just don't understand
why can't you just tell me?


do you not trust me?
I just don't understand
why you can't tell me first-hand
is there a reason your protecting
me from you?
don't you understand all I want
is you?
but I can't do that at arms length
only when we're level
Do you not trust me?


Why don't you trust me?








(c) Bonnie B.

just ONE thing

RESPECT... Thats all I ask for...

Update on the Life of Bonnie....

The biggest and most dramatic change in my life right now is that, my little brother Connor, is now homeschooled with me... And I must say I'm having a very hard time with it... Not only cause I get less attention (which may sound selfish but... Either way my brother got more attention) but because my brother is well... My brother... If you know him you know what I mean, if you don't... You really have NO idea. But I'm going to think of it, of like a test of sorts... But I know so far I'm not getting a good grade on it. Speaking of grades... This has effected my schoolwork... A little... I just haven't been able to focus... I always have a problem with that but with my brother... It makes it that much harder...
The next big change also has to do with my brother... He has a girlfriend... That's 6 inches taller than him and ... Well not a girl I really want my brother with... I mean I guess she's a nice girl and all but... He's WAY too young and...Yah.. I'm not gonna get really into this subject cause if I start, I'm sure I'll say something I regret. So moving on....
John (Clanton) gets back on Friday morning, which I'm happy about... But my brother want to double date with me and him... ARGGG... And ahhh I think we (John and I) are planning to go to lunch at L.O. because for one I know ppl and for two he knows a whole freakin' lot of ppl that haven't seen him in foreva. So I'm sure that'll be entertaining. Ooo and John's bringing one of his cell buddies (school mates? lol) back with him. So they'll be here from the 10th to the 19th. I'm not really sure but whatev.
There's really nothing else interesting to say... I went to the museum a while ago... The Hesse exhibit... I loved it... Which is kinda weird but I love that era, the whole medieval/ Victorian/ renaissance eras. But yeah so I'm tired... I'm gonna go to bed now... Count sheep or something..






<33 Bons

Details disappear

Details disappear
just when you think
you've got nothing to fear
when you've stopped hiding
from the shadows
from the pain

facts fade
feeling like you've
been betrayed
by all who said
they'd never

Details are disappearing
facts are fading
reasons are slipping
meanings are dissolving
reality is vanishing
nothing will stay

reasons slip away
knowing later you'll
have to pay
for everything
you say

meanings dissolve
just when you've
come to your resolve
nothing making sense
when it matters most

Details are disappearing
facts are fading
reasons are slipping
meanings are dissolving
reality is vanishing
nothing will stay

reality vanishes
waiting for some kind
of advantages
so that you don't
feel so, so far behind

Details are disappearing
facts are fading
reasons are slipping
meanings are dissolving
reality is vanishing
nothing will ever stay





(c) Bonnie B.

Bons 

Never

Feeling like nothing I do is right
always needing to fight
for the respect I know I deserve
always having to look away
pretend like I don't care
that they look at me the way they do


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


I know what I am, who I am
but knowing who I wanted to be still hurts
I may look like I didn't get it
but the truth is, I didn't want to
I may act like I'm ok with that
but the cold hard truth is I hate it.


It never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


Looking away, knowing I'll have to pay
Crying when I know, no one will care
all the pain I have to share
complaining about everything to forget
all the things inside if me that are hurting
maybe I am shallow, foolish and small
but how would you know, if you never really look


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay


I see every look they give me
I know you think I don't
surgar coating words to make it seem funny
I know its not
But laughing is better than crying
yeah, laughing is better than trying
to explain how I feel


it never ends
it never goes away
in the end you ALWAYS have to pay
in the end you wish you hadn't strayed







(c) Bonnie Broderick

Don't tell it's not mean --- tainted

Really Don't care if you meant to or not... you did it.

"Most boring and shallow magazines of all time--- all of which Bonnie subscribes to."

"cooing over her long-lost lover"

"for some reason bonnie has a copy of 'Stories and Poems for Extreamly Intelligent Childern Of all Ages' -- sitting in her room"

"keep hearing the words "I Love You" and Kinky coming out of Bonnies mouth"

"I didn't fall or slip at all, opposed to Bonnie who everytime I looked at her, was on her face or her butt."

Quotes from Rae's Blog

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